Monday, January 31, 2005
Posted by Philothea` @ Monday, January 31, 2005 | A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.
As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.
They talked about so many things and various subjects. When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists."
"Why do you say that?" asked the customer.
"Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?
Would there be abandoned children? If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain. I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."
The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument.
The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop. Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard. He looked dirty and unkempt.
The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and he said to the barber: "You know what? Barbers do not exist."
"How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber. "I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!"
"No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside."
"Ah, but barbers DO exist! " answered the barber. "What happens, is, people do not come to me." "Exactly!"- affirmed the customer. "That's the point! God, too, DOES exist! What happens, is, people don't go to Him and do not look for Him. That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."
In happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God.
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Posted by Philothea` @ Sunday, January 30, 2005 | I'm gonna empty my mailbox and sumhow i stumbled upon George Carlin's musings...
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.
We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.
We've added years to life not life to years.
We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbour.
We conquered outer space but not inner space.
We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less.
We plan more, but accomplish less.
We've learned to rush, but not to wait.
We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.
Remember, spend some time with your loved ones,
because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time
to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Posted by Philothea` @ Saturday, January 29, 2005 | [ -* Reflector ]
Since i've found your love
I've never needed anything to fill my heart
Even when i fall
You're always there with open arms to pick me up
From the start i knew
No one else could make me feel the way you do
Everyday i want to grow
Just a little bit closer, just a little bit closer
I want to be a reflector
I want to shine with your glory
I want to let the whole world know that you're
Living in me
I want to burn with your fire
Shine my light a little brighter
I want to let the whole world know that
Jesus Lives in me
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Posted by Philothea` @ Thursday, January 27, 2005 | Stupendous is my next fav word! MCG at my house was stupendously successful today! I didnt even expect such high attendance, oh, me of lil faith. woooh. PTL! JiaLing came as well. Thankfully, there were sufficient food n stuff. Amelia, Veron and I had an interesting time in the kitchen for an hr or so. God knows wad happened whr 3 person who simply can't cook well or prob can't cook actually haf to prepare food. So, prayers was essential to ensure no one gets food poisoning. heez. In case you're still not au fait with the grace of God, we managed to churn out pasta, sauages, slices of luncheon meat, hashbrown, crispy chicken and the list goes on. Mind you, they were delicious! muahaha. of cos, CG was fun cos everyone's all hyped up(",) And I just wldnt mind cleaning up my hse to get things shipshape again.
Lalalalaaa...The past two days had been almost an absolute bliss.
Monday 24 Jan 2005 went to Pasir Ris Fisherman's village in the evening to celebrate Katherine's bdae! A whole grp of IMD peeps were present as well, abt 16 of us. Before we digged in, we all stood up to toast. Instead of saying 'yum seng', everyone went "SCUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUM!" and then sat down quietly and started eating without a word. (-Beatrice) I hope we're not mistaken as lunatics. Anyhow, kath's bdae celebrations included a surprise song presentation by glenn, GQ and Mud. It was crappy, hilarious but really nice of them. Kath had her flowers and bdae cake too. I'm certain it was a touching and memorable time of her life. Happy sweet eighteen, KATHerine! :)
Tuesday 25 Jan 2005 I gave my SGH appt a miss! It doesnt matter as long as the lumps in my throats are not growing. Well, at least it doesnt seem like it's increasing in size at da moment. I met up wif Zing, Amelia and Carmen.
okies dokies, I shall leave out da details and get goin wif my work now. Ciao!
Sunday, January 23, 2005
Posted by Philothea` @ Sunday, January 23, 2005 | I cooked dinner today! Noodles + fishballs + potatoes + vegetables. Am I good or what? Haha. My bros and I were too lazy to get food though the foodcourt is situated right beside my block. Anyway, it has been a pretty tiring looong day. I woke up early this morning and headed down town again for my job training. We were supposed to reach by ten thirty but my boss only came at eleven plus. Argh. I could have taken my breakfast. I was starving! Nvm. He is forgiven. blaaah. By the way, the job requires me to promote OCBC Credits cards. Memorising all the information wasnt tough but I figured out dat dis job isn't suitable for me. Plus, I have to work everyday except a day's off. My heels are kiling me alrdy! There goes my beautiful feet. Hur. I've decided that I shall devote my upcoming week for a greater purpose. It's only a week of term break.
Combine team meeting held at nexus dis afternoon was great!(",) It reminded me of all da efforts, events, joy, hardships etc. dat took place in da past quarter. Indeed, none of it have gone to waste. The church ministry burst out with a vision by people for people. It's ever so encouraging to see the dif congregations serving God 2gether in such a matter. We may all play dif roles, serve at dif places, meet wif dif encounters but we're one big FAMILY in Christ. Everybody's important! There's still so much more that we can achieve in dis upcoming quater! I pray dat I'll not lose sight of the vision and keep pumping on with the love of God! R A D I A T E S :) I can't stop praising Him!
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Posted by Philothea` @ Saturday, January 22, 2005 | [ -* EMOTIONAL ] by Diana Degarmo
Sometimes I get emotional
Sometimes I do some stupid things
Sometimes I say what I should just keep inside
Sometimes I'm sad, about everything
Sometimes I'm mad, and break some things
Sorry times ten, but you just got in the way
Don't give up no, running away
I won't hurt you
Sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy
But sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel,
Emotional
You say I'm just, impossible
Totally, unpredictable
I'm just a girl, get used to it
No big deal
You can't change me
Why would you try
I'm no angel, but I can make you smile
And that's the way it is
And that's just the way I am
Don't give up now, running away
I won't hurt you
Sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy
But sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel
Sometimes I get,
Emotional
One of the song presentations sang in church today. Whoeva dat person who sang it frm the adult minstry is fabulous! I like her voice! Lalitta, Neil n Joanne were great too. EMOTIONS service was cool. Pastor Jeff shared a great sermon with his sense of humour and eloquence. I'm looking 4ward to next week! I'm really glad dat Farah and sum others came even though I wasnt da one who invited them. I'm thankful, truly thankful to God, for all he has done in my life and the lives of those around me. I meant, it's amazing how he works and answers prayers! I'm at rest in his unchanging love!(",)
Anyway, I went jogging with Emmeline yesterday afternoon. We must be crazy exercising under the scorching hot sun. I always prefer swimming to jogging. Don't tink i'll go jogging anytime soon unless it's in da gym, yes wif air-con! We ate half a rock melon afterwards. It was unusually sweet and we were jus wondering if it was soaked in sugar solution. That reminds me of BIOLOGY and all the chapter on diffusion and osmosis. Lol. I still love BIOLOGY but I can't remb the details of it all. I headed down to town for a job application in the evening while Emme went for a sch bbq. Tink i'll most prob be working again soon. That's all for now. I seriously need to catch sum sleep! zZzZzzZz
Friday, January 21, 2005
Posted by Philothea` @ Friday, January 21, 2005 | Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust
I've reaped the consequences of my sins; my worldly indulges of stubborness, greed, pride and self denial. It was a painful and emotional experience. I'm utterly sorry to cause my loved ones to be worried sick for me, even inflicting pain on myself and others. But I'm moving on right now with the grace of God(",) Oh Lord, deepen my convictions as I yield to YOU.
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.
Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes.
For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.
Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints. Ephesians 6:10-18
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Posted by Philothea` @ Tuesday, January 18, 2005 | I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again
What's wrong, what's wrong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies broken inside
No place to go, no place to go
To dry her eyes broken inside
Open your eyes (open your eyes)
And look outside
Find the reason why (why)
You've been rejected (you've been rejected)
And now you can't find
What you left behind
Be strong, be strong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs
Her feeling she hides
Her dream she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's fallen behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's fallen from grace
She's all over the place
She's lost inside, lost inside
doesnt it sounds familiar? taken from Avril Lavigne's album "Under my skin" and sang by Jasmine Poon after preaching one of the sermon during service. I can totally identify with the lyrics. I've seen it evidently in so many p'ple's lives. Never, ever, never will I imagine... come across my mind... occur to ME... But now I know. I really know. It's right before my eyes. The reflection staring back at me.
I hate myself
more than anything else right now.
I'm such a fool.
Friday, January 14, 2005
Posted by Philothea` @ Friday, January 14, 2005 | [22] ZeRoNe---wats e meaning of life? says:
let me tink of all ur gd qualities
[22] ZeRoNe---wats e meaning of life? says:
whoa
[22] ZeRoNe---wats e meaning of life? says:
is like infinity
//Philothea says:
i knew u're gona say dat.
//Philothea says:
i feel the same way abt you too. lol.
[22] ZeRoNe---wats e meaning of life? says:
great minds tink alike
ohh. I really wanna blog on but laziness and my disoriented tots are strongly discouraging me.
Plus, I hate my present blogskin and changing it is a waste of my time.
so is blogging this post now.
IRONY has always been one of my favourite word.
Anyway, I shall announce my new yr resolutions for 2005 though I can't even remb last yr's, let alone to fulfil them. oh wellz.
1. Be PUNCTUAL
2. Drink more WATER. (at least 2 whole bottles a day)
3. Exercise regularly. (at least twice a week)
4. Be more ACCOUNTABLE.
I figured out that there's more and there'll surely be more resolutions along the way. Meanwhile, I shall just abide by them. Right nw, my one desire and heart's cry to bring glory and honour to God in all that I do. I am totally aware that I have done enuff things that displeased my heavenly father and even stumbled others in one way or another. I ain't perfect but never will be in this lifetime. But I'll change and I meant it. All you saints and sinners out there can start praying for me and i'll really appreciate your gentle reminders. However, you've no obligations or wadeva.
[ *-Love of my life ]
With my eyes, I long to see your smile
With my ears, I long to hear your voice
With all my heart, I long to feel you
With all my soul, I long to seek you
Please let me find the way to your dwelling place
I long to hide in the shadows of your wings
to find my rest as I dwell in your peace
to live forever in the beauty of your praise
draw me close to you, close by your side
I want to hold you tight, close to my mind
Come, take me to the place where you could be found
I want to praise you Lord, all of my life
I want to let you know
from the depths of my heart
you'll be forever Lord, the love of my life`
Sunday, January 09, 2005
Posted by Philothea` @ Sunday, January 09, 2005 | I loveeeeeeeeeee Planet Shakers!
Most importantly, i loveeeeeeeeee them cos their songs help me to express my heartfelt emotions to God :)
Today's church service is great as usual with the exuberant praise n worship, joanne's encouraging testimony, life transforming sermon >finding God's cure, fellowship, laughter and everything else!
I believe, i trust in the promises of God and I'll not give up working on the salvation of my family. That one fine day, Mummy, Daddy and Caleb will unlock the door of their hearts to Jesus.
I shall not limit God's way of healing. Though I may not see God's hand moving but I shall trust in his character. His love never fails! I shall live on by His promises and not on explanations. God's God and I'm not. Human reasonings alone can't stand.
Philothea's living in the beauty of your praise!(",)
[ *-Everything's changed ]
You ask me why. Why I’m so different
Why I’m not the same as everybody else
Well something changed. It just happened
When I opened up my heart and let Him in
Jesus came in he came into my life
And i know i never felt so good.
Cause Everything’s changed, Everything is different
Now You ask me how. How I can be sure
How I know it’s not just something else for fun
Cause He’s so real, So real in my life
He picked me up and turned my universe around
Everything, everything, everything in my life’s changed
Everything, everything, everything in my life’s different
Saturday, January 08, 2005 Just for Dawnn
Posted by Philothea` @ Saturday, January 08, 2005 | I was so careless, ungrateful, forgetful, wadeva you name it that I've not included my lovely dawn in my appreciation list of 2004. This post shall be dedicated to her and her only.
This gurl somehow captured my attention sum two yrs ago, in the times of my mugging for prelims n "O"s and dat's how all the fun began. We studied at bishan interchange macs, centre pt macs, starhub foodcourt, changi airport...erm I can't remb whr else. What matter was not the venue, but it was the gd old days whr it was enjoyable studying with the lovely dawn, fiona, or occasionally with olivine and sally.
I remembered, I still remember...
Fiona n I were moved to tears when you shared how dat guy in ya sch was announced died when he choked on peanuts, leaving his family and gf behind.
We were kept entertained by Simple plan and wadeva dat was played on 98.7fm.
Changi airport was your fav spot and secret hiding place.
I tried to direct your perspective to finding refuge in God "Still".
I witnessed your water baptism.
Your desire for North to reunite as one full force again. Yes, it came to pass. You transfered to NYP grp. Great, it's still in north and now you're making a difference there!
there's so much more I can recall. lalalalaaaaa....blah.
Thnks lovely, for you're a dear friend.
Thnks lovely, for you brought me laughter and joy.
Thnks lovely, for sharing your life with me.
Thnks lovely, for you're still serving faithfully, though not by my side but with the same great vision.
Thnks lovely, for the letter you wrote that's glued on my wall. It never fails to encourage me and keeps me going wheneva I read it.
Thnks lovely, for I can count on you and be sure that we can be neighbours in heaven.
Thnks lovely, for my life's beautiful simply bcos you're part of it all!
I loveeee you and I'm missing you!
Daaaaawnnn! You left your footprints in my heart! :D
Thursday, January 06, 2005
Posted by Philothea` @ Thursday, January 06, 2005 | I'm in the midst of typography class rite nw. I'm seriously gona fall aslp when it comes to phek gek's boring teaching and her colourful powerpt slides can't seem to capture much of our attention.
Here's a summary of my week thus far,
Projects! Projects! Projects!
Assignments! Assignments! Assignments!
Deadlines! Deadlines! Deadlines!
So, I still have to complete my colour assignments, make a trip down to esplande to draw Botero's artworks, brainstorm new ideas for IMD Project 1, 20 journal entries n other writings for Cwrite, design and create a clock for C.thinking, get started on my colour journal and visual diary. A new typography project (logotype Design) has just been handed out to me. My oh mine. No time for break and no time to waste. Procrastination has to get outta my way! F O C U S.
On a postive note, I'm looking forward to far north pioneering. After much restructing, I'm off from NA and NF here i cum!
A new yr, a new beginning. a new grp, a new team I'm serving with, new names dat's written all over my heart...
Carmen, HimYi, Amelia, Jogina, Chynna, Zarel, Karen, JiaLing.
Monday, January 03, 2005 My Appreciation
Posted by Philothea` @ Monday, January 03, 2005 | Year 2005! Gone is two thousand and four.
I can't possibly dwell in the past any longer but there's still much to be thankful for.
My heart goes out to...(not in any order to the proportion of my love)
`Mummy, my 3 younger bros, my adorable cousins, granny, aunts
I know that it's by God's divine purpose that we came to be :)
`ZiYing, Pris, Olivine
I'm assured with your guidance, unconditional love and uncompromising commitment to God and the church. Thnks for always believing in me, showing me who I was created to be and never giving up on me. :)
`Emmeline
I truly treasure our unique f'ship. Knowing you since I was five and a half, my life wldn't haf been so colourful without you. You're definately one of those who understands me well and even my bros love you. :)
`Sweet
I never tot Cinderella's story cld be true till i met you. I am sorry that things didnt turn out the way you want it to be. Thnks for always being there for me and loving me for who I am. :)
`Cheryl, Naomi, MeiQi, Yiyou, Karen
I have the privilege to make a difference in your lives and to be encouraged by your child-like faith. Thnks for being patient with me and allowing me to grow together with you. It has always been my prayer that your potential may be unleased and that you may live up to your birthright. Remb, never, never gif up! i look forward to hearing great news from you all. :)
`SinHung, XiaoShuo, TianRuo, Patricia, Inez
Rock on in Cedar and keep bursting out with the love of God! :)
`SherLi, Magdalene, Nellie, Evelyn, XinMei
Can you hear the sound of revival? Stretch and keep reaching out with faith! :)
`Ruth, JunYao, David Hoe, David Ong, Bruce, Daryl
You guys are a great bunch of inspiring and loving teamates. Thnks for sharing your lives with me and there's still so much more I can learn from every single one of you. :)
`Priscilla, Shi Ling, Katherine, Matthias
I am blessed to have such true friends in school. Thnks for lending me your ears and being so kind towards me. :)
`JESUS CHRIST
What more can i say? You're the only one that can truly fill the vacuum in my heart. Life's worth the living simply bcos you came and showed me the extent of your amazing love. I fail you time and again but I'm thankful that you love me all the same, yesterday, today and forever more. Your grace abounds so deeply within me. :)
the list can go on forever and I still havnt thank everyone enough. For those mentioned above, you've brighten up my life and left a deep impact on me in the past yr. Like lovely stars that brings life to the night sky, you're all so wonderful and dear to me. I pray that I'll not take any of you for granted and will continue to shower you with love. I can't wait for the day that we would all be neighbours in heaven. I'll never die, forgeting the strong pillars in my life, at least, not rite nw. Thnks, once again, that I can smile each time I think of each one of you *winks
